During the last few months I have felt like I was renting someone else’s body. I know this because if I was in my own body, I would not have a butterfly mind. I would be focused. I would be able to sit in meditation for more than five minutes. I would be able to concentrate on a project for more than five minutes. I would paint because that is my voice. And that voice has been silent.
It is more than just not being inspired. Inspiration surrounds me and I take note. But I had entered a downward vortex of self doubt and struggle. I had lost the ability to trust in the process.
In order to trust the process wholly and completely we do not need to know what is unfolding or why. We simply need to be in the present moment to experience it. It is not until you are totally exposed and vulnerable, that you are forced to live and breathe that moment of struggle with a profound level of trust and know that, without doubt, your struggle will end.
I am reminded of this quote by Ray Bradbury, "Learning to should be learned before learning to . Life should be touched, not strangled. You've got to relax, let it happen at times, and at others move forward with it."